Thursday, June 17, 2010

you can't even HANDLE this

yello!

let’s just get down to it. i finally did my june weigh-in at ww (or “dubs” as elizabeth and i so lovingly call it). i knew i was on the verge of being out of my lifetime (aka nonpaying) goal-weight range. i set my dubs goal weight at 149, and i’m allowed to be up to 151. above that and you pay for that week’s meeting.

huge reality check: i weighed 151.4.


the receptionist entered in the computer that i was 151 because i was soooo close and my clothes weighed at least 0.4 pounds. but still. maybe i SHOULD have paid. i would have felt like enough of a failure to myself that i’d never get out of range again! i suppose having it documented that i was back in the 150s was kick in the pants enough, though.

i’ve woken up at 149 and 148 the past two mornings, so realistically i am still hovering around my ww goal weight. HOWEVER, that’s not my real-life weight goal!!!! have i forgotten that???? i must have.

my real-life weight goal is 139. i was oh so close only a handful of months ago. 142-143 in february or so. and then multiple birthday outings happened … and out-of-town drinkyfoodyness … and mexico … and life. excuses excuses.

obviously i know i’m not a fatty anymore. i really do feel great about myself! and i’m a firm believer that it’s not about the number on the scale but the way your clothes fit. well, my tum tum is much bloatier than it was a few months ago, and my clothes don’t fit quite as nicely. sooo there's that. and my added poundage confirms that i haven’t simply shrunken my clothing.



after a month off, eliz and i are back into taking dubs seriously. well, as seriously as people who call it dubs can be. but we’re serious. seriously.

for instance! i volunteered at a river cleanup thing yesterday afternoon and was completely wiped afterward. i was sore just driving home from the event. i wanted to put up my feet and take it easy for the duration of the evening. that meant skipping kickboxing. BUT NO! I DID NOT SKIP! i kickboxed my little heart out even though my bod was tired and i had a headache beforehand.

result: my bod got over its tiredness and my headache decreased by at least 2/3.

i had mentioned to my coworkerfriend that i reeeeaaallly wanted to pick up pizza for dinner. hello! i would have earned it after volunteering AND kickboxing!!! but my mind decided something else as it drove me to subway instead of the pizza place. victory!

healthy decisions ftw!

the title of this post suggested you wouldn’t be able to handle something i was preparing to throw at you. well, here it is: MY NEW THEN/NOW PIC!!!!!!!!!!!!


maybe you can handle the difference. but you can’t, right?? i can’t! it’s crazy nuts awesome!!!!!!!!!


both pics were snapped by the same tree in puerto vallarta, mexico, and let me tell you i was a bit touched when i had the most recent one taken. that tree and i have a history, you know!?

anyway, i pretty much look like a different person in the now picture, and i love it :) i put them next to each other and might have screamed. or maybe laughed at the happy surprise. i know for sure i exclaimed “whoa!” a bunch of times.

i’ve analyzed every part of my old body versus the new, and it’s just nuts. NUTS I TELL YOU!


ok, time to calm down and take it all in, me.

dear, amandarin:
you are stunning. really. believe it.
you are the healthiest you’ve been in your life. be proud.
you have the best friends and family ever.
you are talented.
you are loved.
you rock.
love, amandarin

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25 comments:

  1. I love your new before and after picture. You look amazing!

    you are stunning. really. believe it.
    you are the healthiest you’ve been in your life. be proud.
    you have the best friends and family ever.
    you are talented.
    you are loved.
    you rock.

    BELIEVE IT!

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  2. you're a knockout girl! seriously!

    you should be so so proud at how far you have come. yet at the same time, i totally understand what you are going through in relation to 'dubs' (love it). i have been going through the same type of thing however i have not yet reached my goal! i'm all over the self sabotage thang ;) whenever i come within a few pounds of goal i decide to gain to make life hard. but i'm over it. thanks for the motivation lady!

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  3. Damn girl, you look awesome!!! That's so cool that you got a before and after pic at the same spot, especially since it was in mexico!! Aww.

    Good for you on getting back into the groove and taking this a bit more seriously. I need to take a hint from you, desperately as I'm still 20 pounds from goal and slacking off big time!

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  4. You look AMAZING! Good for you for getting things back under control before they get too far away! I have NO doubt that you will be back where you want to be in NO time at all!

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  5. That is amazing!! Way to go - what a cool comparison shot with the same tree. It almost looks like two different people at the same place!

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  6. Your new after pic is STUNNING!
    I printed out the Dr Phil pic and put it in my diary! Love it!

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  7. You look freaking awesome sweetie!!

    My weigh ins have been a little higher the last 3-4 weeks too. I hate that!! I'm still in my lifetime range, but higher than I want to be.

    But, you know what you have to do and you will be fine. :)

    Good choice on the Subway. Have you tried those new baked tuscan herb and something or other chips? OMG! Very good!

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  8. I can relate to your current phase completely! Things are going good, you start to feel unstoppable so we get a little more relaxed with our eats and activity and guess what the thing that is “supposed” to happen – happens, we gain. It’s simple math right? Then, why do I get so shocked when I see certain numbers. I’m going to recommit with you. My body and my mind are telling me it’s time to go back to what made me feel AMAZING instead of just good. Like you said the clothes still “fit” but not the way I like them to…. I hope you keep us posted with your progress. It’s a great motivator to see someone over come something your struggling with :-)

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  9. I'm not lifetime yet - but I had a gain that definitely woke me up. Completely understand that wake-up call. Good luck as you forge ahead. You got this and you already look amazing!

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  10. That before and after picture of you might have made me tear up a bit. Seriously Amanda, you are my inspiration. Be extremely proud of yourself.

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  11. Congrats on that pic! Absolutely amazing!

    I hear you on *almost* hitting your goal and then realizing you let a few pounds on. I've been up a few pounds for close to 6 months now and I can't get them off (well, I probably could if I ate better sometimes...) but I figure, I feel great and my clothes fit how I want them to so, eh, it'll happen when it happens. Maybe that's an excuse but I'm running with it. Ha.

    You don't want to spend the rest of your life chasing, like, 7 pounds too. Right?

    See you in a week for the 5K! Should be fun!

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  12. You rock the thread off my socks!!!!!

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  13. Awesome!!! Your before and after pics are amazing!

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  14. You look fantastic!!!!

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  15. i can't even handle it. nuts.
    i knew that girl. and i loved her. and i thought she was beautiful all the same. but the girl i know now loves herself and there's nothing more important than that. i'm so proud of you! you amaze me. i love you!
    boop.

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  16. you are so beautiful in both pics! this is so inspiring! i too needed a kick in the pants and i think you gave it to me, girl!

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  17. you inspire me... i linked up to this post in my moo monday post.

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  18. Go Amanda! Yeah, be proud!!!! XOX

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  19. Wow, what a great comparison shot! You are beautiful and it's clear that you feel great about yourself too :-).

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  20. You look AMAZING! Good for you for getting things back

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  22. HooRayGun, girl! You rrrock!! I'm very, VERY proud of you losing all that weight. Wish I could have some HeeHee Nevertheless, here's my story: God bless you. Meet me Upstairs in Seventh-Heaven - we gotta lotta tok about --- I love you.

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